How can you not see how much this hurts me. I’ve told you time and time again that it does and you bypass it. I can’t even explain the heartache. I never thought you would do this to me. I always thought I’d be the one to hurt you. The tables have been turned. The thing is, you don’t see that this, what you are doing now, is getting me so so close to doing things that I don’t want to do. I don’t want to hurt myself. But, honestly, there is nothing worse than this pain, so let me keep my mind on a different type of hurt. Deep inside my selfish self, I want to just leave you, so you can ask yourself why every single day. Maybe you’ll feel how I do right now. This is unbareable. My heart is breaking, and you can’t hear a sound.